~Demus-Scythos

Exactly two years have passed since I last wrote.

Although it has taken more time than anticipated, I may have found a way to still devote time to this place. It took a year of relaxation to find the answer.

And so do I return.

Dearest Goddess of DevART,

I can only offer you my sincerest apologies for neglecting you for so long. You need not for a fool to say to you how long since we've last truly been together. And at a time where for two moons, my freedom would be given to me... I have no excuses to regurgitate in attempt to justify my own cardinal sins.

You have been treated not as you should be, and no one else is at fault but myself. Oh yes I am well aware I am not actually directing this to anyone, let alone attempting to purge my conscience of it's heartfelt guilt. At the end of it all, it is myself who is the greatest victim, if not the only. And with that, I can live with. If my head is the only which shall be beheaded by the weapon in my hand - aye, the sword of neglect, the blade of abadonment, the edge of stillness - then let the blood pour. Heaven and Hell knows I am deserving.

Now, the two moons of freedom are all but eclipsed, and I'm afraid the time will come where it will truly take a miracle for us to unite again. I don't expect you to understand, nor do I expect you to forgive me... And I suppose at that, I could not ask for you to wait for me either. But I am only as unreasonable as I am human, for one is a facet of the other. At the shattering of one promise, I pledge to thee to make one more. One week less remains for this last moon of freedom, and after, one long year under the seas of black I shall return and part ways with you.

"No matter how dark the night, morning always comes."

And so I blindingly beg of you: wait for me. With the last moon eclipsed, I shall die once again. Seasons will cycle and the earth will keep spinning around the sun, once, and then, I shall reborn. From the ashes of death shall rise the flames of rebirth.

Farewell 'till then,
Demus-Scythos

PS - You are my ray of hope in the oceans of darkness.

...is here.

Soon...
Soon...
Soon I shall return.

Wait for me.

At long last.
My latest deviation.
I was able to take one breath
In the sea of suffering
In the oceans of work and routine
In the depths of suffocation and slavery

My dreams have been swept away.
My dreams have been scared away.

[Corrupted Soul 2]

My one single breath.

It feels good. I wish I could do it more often, just like old times. I don't know how I managed to do it before, when all this was going on. But now, I have to wait for an actual vacation to do anything. But I don't want to tie myself down to that, because then I would be no different than them. I want to keep my freedom, whatever small breaths of air that may be, however small those breaths of air may be, whenever those small breaths of air happen.

I just want to be free again.
I just want to dream again.
I just want to feel again.

I honestly don't know if I will ever really submit anything again to DevART.

*cries*

Forgive me. Blame all this work. I do. I hate it.

Goodbye, my love... May I see you again someday.

Until then...
I won't ask you to wait for me.
Move on, if you wish.
I do not want to hold you back.

..::Fly Away Butterfly... Fly, Fly Away::..